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I started a new job on Monday. It’s amazing and everything I dreamed it would be. In just one week, I feel so valued, I have a voice, and there is so much good opportunity for me to grow and help build a brand. It’s incredible. From 9-5, I am so extremely happy and excited.
But today? It hit me. Hard. I will never again sit next to my office friends again. I will never go for a soda walk, or a Starbucks run or a “lets get the hell out of here for 10 minutes to remain sane” adventure. Happy hours are different, outings must be planned and spontaneous dance parties at 3pm are now a distant memory. I went on a business trip this week and instead of staying up til 3am drinking wine and playing cards, I was neatly tucked in bed by 9pm, my coworkers down the hall, miles away from my former travel partners. It’s a new life, and it’s going to take a while to get used to it. For now, I’ll just keep this bright reminder at my new desk of all the loves I added to my life over the past two years and try to keep my emotions from getting the best of me.
“Putting in a lot, only to end up with nothing to show for it, is just too awful for most of us to seriously consider. The problem is one of focus. We worry far too much about what we’ll lose if we just move on, instead of focusing on the costs of not moving on: more wasted time and effort, more unhappiness, and more missed opportunities.”
The Atlantic: How to Walk Away (via spareunderthemattt)
(via pinkeezy)
“You don’t need a reason to leave. Wanting to leave is enough. Leaving doesn’t mean you’re incapable of real love or that you’ll never love anyone else again. It means you wish to change the terms of one particular relationship. That’s all. Be brave enough to break your own heart.”
Cheryl Strayed, Tiny Beautiful Things
Lately, when I’m on the subway or in a cab or in Starbucks and I start to feel overwhelmed, I open up this book on my iPad and just breathe in a reminder that everything turns out exactly the way it is supposed to, and that sometimes what we think are our weakest moments end up being our strongest.
“Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything will be. Sometimes you’ll put up a good fight and lose. Sometimes you’ll hold on really hard and realize there is no choice but to let go.”
Dear Sugar (via therumpus.net)
(Source: no-evidence-of-intelligence, via norlypleaseexcusethemess)
“Never continue in a job you don’t enjoy. If you’re happy in what you’re doing, you’ll like yourself, you’ll have inner peace. And if you have that, along with physical health, you will have had more success than you could possibly have imagined.”
Johnny Carson
So relevant this week
BIG NEWS THURSDAY
So… after almost 2 years, a lot of ridiculous fun, a lot of heartbreak, a lot of travel and so many crazy work events, I quit my job today.
Three and a half years ago, I set out a goal to move in-house and really own a brand’s event portfolio. Almost 3 years to the day that I found out I did not receive the Adidas job, that goal has been accomplished. Sometimes I forget in the daily struggle and the in and out of every day life that things can really work out just the way they are supposed to.
I’m so emotional, but so excited. Relieved, but also really really sad to go. This place gave me some of my very best friends and some of my favorite New York memories. It’s been a roller coaster few weeks.
I’m going in house as an Event marketing Manager for a national brand. The company is based in New Jersey so I’m buying a car and getting an EZPass and doing all kinds of adult life activities that I may or may not be ready for.
These people have become the loves of my life and it’s going to be the absolute worst to not see them every day, but I am so so thrilled for what’s next and grateful that these real life friends are with me for the long haul regardless of our place of employment.
CHEERS FRIENDS!
“The fact that you’re struggling doesn’t make you a burden. It doesn’t make you unloveable or undesirable or undeserving of care. It doesn’t make you too much or too sensitive or too needy. It makes you human. Everyone struggles. Everyone has a difficult time coping, and at times, we all fall apart. During these times, we aren’t always easy to be around — and that’s okay. No one is easy to be around one hundred percent of the time. Yes, you may sometimes be unpleasant or difficult. And yes, you may sometimes do or say things that make the people around you feel helpless or sad. But those things aren’t all of who you are and they certainly don’t discount your worth as a human being. The truth is that you can be struggling and still be loved. You can be difficult and still be cared for. You can be less than perfect, and still be deserving of compassion and kindness.”
Daniell Koepke
(via adeana)
LOVE
(Source: internal-acceptance-movement, via kfoody)
Family Chats
- Me to my youngest brother: Why haven't we met your girlfriend yet? What's she like?
- YB: Well, she's...a lot like you.
- Mom: Bossy?
- Older Young Brother: Moody?
- Dad: Loud?
- Me: Could we please stop guessing mean characteristics of me and let him talk?? Thank you.
I love the Internet’s ability to provide me something almost immediately after I see it. This made me laugh for hours last night.
(Source: amypoehler)
“In the end, only three things matter:
how much you loved, how gently you lived,
and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.”
Buddhist saying (via dulcetdecember)
(Source: thelenaubr, via elizablr)
These past two weeks have been really, really rough. Two years ago, when I moved back to NYC, I had no idea what this time around would hold for me. What I never predicted though, was that I would find and fall in love with the most amazing people. I used to get nervous about what would happen when we didn’t all work together one day. Not anymore. Real life friends FTW.
“
And this is it. She humbles herself to the moment by closing her eyes. She smiles. She knew it. She knew this day would come. But she also can’t believe it came. It’s happening now.
He shakes his head. “I know,” he says with his chin. But he can’t believe it either and he doesn’t know what to expect so he adjusts his face and body because shit is about to get real.
Yes, let’s do this. Let’s fucking do this. We’re in it already. We are in it. The people are watching us, we are watching us, we are in control and fighting to be in control and not in control at all. So she cries, because DUH OF COURSE SHE CRIES.
He blinks at her as if to say he’s sorry, but he casts his eyes downward to truly show his regrets. She realizes things will never be the same, could never be the same, are not the same. That’s life. She’s devastated by that fact, but she resigns herself to it. Her dignity won’t allow her to be foolish here.
”Carolyn Castiglia, Babble
I’ve been looking for the words to describe my emotional state. These are them. Beautiful.
“why won’t they
leave me
alone?
don’t they
realize i
have a
tinder heart
and a
paper body
and that
any spark
will turn me
straight to
ash?”
David Levithan, The Realm of Possibility (via svvelt)
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