I started a new job on Monday. It’s amazing and everything I dreamed it would be. In just one week, I feel so valued, I have a voice, and there is so much good opportunity for me to grow and help build a brand. It’s incredible. From 9-5, I am so extremely happy and excited.
But today? It hit me. Hard. I will never again sit next to my office friends again. I will never go for a soda walk, or a Starbucks run or a “lets get the hell out of here for 10 minutes to remain sane” adventure. Happy hours are different, outings must be planned and spontaneous dance parties at 3pm are now a distant memory. I went on a business trip this week and instead of staying up til 3am drinking wine and playing cards, I was neatly tucked in bed by 9pm, my coworkers down the hall, miles away from my former travel partners. It’s a new life, and it’s going to take a while to get used to it. For now, I’ll just keep this bright reminder at my new desk of all the loves I added to my life over the past two years and try to keep my emotions from getting the best of me.
Cheryl Strayed, Tiny Beautiful Things
Lately, when I’m on the subway or in a cab or in Starbucks and I start to feel overwhelmed, I open up this book on my iPad and just breathe in a reminder that everything turns out exactly the way it is supposed to, and that sometimes what we think are our weakest moments end up being our strongest.
Dear Sugar (via therumpus.net)
So relevant this week
So… after almost 2 years, a lot of ridiculous fun, a lot of heartbreak, a lot of travel and so many crazy work events, I quit my job today.
Three and a half years ago, I set out a goal to move in-house and really own a brand’s event portfolio. Almost 3 years to the day that I found out I did not receive the Adidas job, that goal has been accomplished. Sometimes I forget in the daily struggle and the in and out of every day life that things can really work out just the way they are supposed to.
I’m so emotional, but so excited. Relieved, but also really really sad to go. This place gave me some of my very best friends and some of my favorite New York memories. It’s been a roller coaster few weeks.
I’m going in house as an Event marketing Manager for a national brand. The company is based in New Jersey so I’m buying a car and getting an EZPass and doing all kinds of adult life activities that I may or may not be ready for.
These people have become the loves of my life and it’s going to be the absolute worst to not see them every day, but I am so so thrilled for what’s next and grateful that these real life friends are with me for the long haul regardless of our place of employment.
I love the Internet’s ability to provide me something almost immediately after I see it. This made me laugh for hours last night.
Buddhist saying (via dulcetdecember)
These past two weeks have been really, really rough. Two years ago, when I moved back to NYC, I had no idea what this time around would hold for me. What I never predicted though, was that I would find and fall in love with the most amazing people. I used to get nervous about what would happen when we didn’t all work together one day. Not anymore. Real life friends FTW.
And this is it. She humbles herself to the moment by closing her eyes. She smiles. She knew it. She knew this day would come. But she also can’t believe it came. It’s happening now.
He shakes his head. “I know,” he says with his chin. But he can’t believe it either and he doesn’t know what to expect so he adjusts his face and body because shit is about to get real.
Yes, let’s do this. Let’s fucking do this. We’re in it already. We are in it. The people are watching us, we are watching us, we are in control and fighting to be in control and not in control at all. So she cries, because DUH OF COURSE SHE CRIES.
He blinks at her as if to say he’s sorry, but he casts his eyes downward to truly show his regrets. She realizes things will never be the same, could never be the same, are not the same. That’s life. She’s devastated by that fact, but she resigns herself to it. Her dignity won’t allow her to be foolish here.”
Carolyn Castiglia, Babble
I’ve been looking for the words to describe my emotional state. These are them. Beautiful.
David Levithan, The Realm of Possibility (via svvelt)
David Levithan, A Lover’s Dictionary (via xenium)